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I have never felt so lonely and isolated before as I have this year, and that is despite the pandemic. I had a baby just over a year ago, my first, and it was a life changing event for me in many ways but none more so than the damage it has done to my mental health. Is that too negative to say?! Having babies is glorious right?! But yeah - it’s been a bit shit to be quite honest. Reading your newsletter has genuinely made me realise that actually, I shouldn’t be scared of saying the things that might be deemed by some to be controversial or “wrong.” I’m allowed to say the things that are true to me, that are a genuine reflection of how I’m feeling, and I shouldn’t have to hide them away if I don’t want to. So thank you, Bella.

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The doors are definitely not weird, we await more!! My housemate and I give a knowing look and say "good door" whenever we see a worthy door on our frequent lockdown runs, especially as ours has a 3 inch gap underneath which would never make it to the list!

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Love this ♥️ Lots that resonate with me. Struggling more recently with lack of confidence about every god dam thing and tears every day but so many of us are. Thanks for sharing xxxx

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Bella, I love the list. I haven’t ruined so many clothes with spots of bleach - why do they always go red!

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You are brilliant! Made me laugh so much!

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This is so comforting thank you Bella! Your writing is great and as an aspiring journalist, inspiring x

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Love your writing Bella! I ALSO came across a Covid denier in a Tesco (up north in Chester!) Why is Tesco the common denominator for this weird cult of people?!!!

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I love your writing. Something always resonates with me. Thank you as always! Xx

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Love this list- shows we aren’t all alone. Hope it was cathartic. Just bought back memories of anti-baccing all my shopping. Twice. You know in case the first wipe just spreader it about.

I’m thinking bad shoes is no coincidence.

Loved the door snaps on your runs too. I always look at details like this when I’m out and about too x

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Have loved your door photography and found myself taking photos of doors on a walk last weekend. Questioned myself if it was right to do so but validated it with the thought that you made it OK.

Reading this at stupid O Clock as my racing mind won’t let me sleep. Thanks Bella for entertaining us through lockdown and normalising our behaviour.

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This is fantastic!!!

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I love that you have managed to put into words every crazy thought it fear I also have had this whole year. THANK YOU!!

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Brilliant as always

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Brilliant piece Bella. This is totally me from the bleaching of takeaway boxes to the Botox thoughts! My husband also displayed caddish dream behaviour! High five as you have confirmed to me that I am not losing the plot. 😊

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Bella, your honesty is such a breath of fresh air. This list is oh too relatable but reading it makes me feel a little more sane- thank you!

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Thanks for this, Bella. I have been lucky in that I was able to work online and work was manic - a real life saver. I did start to bake and obsessed more than usual about my favourite TV show however. The.one positive - I like being largely invisible because then I don't have to worry about what ppl think.

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